Busy Bee

Its been such a hectic few weeks at work! *phew* And its still only thursday. One more day to go and its the weekend! Yaaaay!

Its been horrible and rainy since yesterday. Problem is, the rain is like ice water here. By the time I get in to work (i walk to work. Good excersice for 25 minutes!), my ears are cold enough to just snap off! But with the fast walking and the snowman looking coat (it doesnt help that my coat is white!), the rest of me is warm enough.

Its about 6 weeks before I go home to Malaysia. EXCITED! But also a bit sad since my Sam wont be along until sometime in June.

Am looking foward to my Mummy's cooking! And following my dad to the pasar malam and pasar Tanis. Its great! Childhood memories that I like to re-live any chance I get! Once we went to the pasar malam and it started raining so suddenly we couldnt even get to the car before we were totally drenched! So, since he didnt want us to soak the car seats, he decided we should walk home and get the car later! So my daddy and I walked home together in the warm rain, and he kicked muddy water all over me everytime there was a convinient puddle! It was fun!

*sigh*

I miss home.

I will write more about my growing up some time. Right now, Im just thinking about all the things I want to do when I get home. My nieces (Ashley, Adelle and Adelia) and I for one will be having a girls day in! We'll make cookies and have it over a glass of milk and talk and talk until they get tired....hmmm... or at least until I get tired. Chatter boxes they are! Even the youngest daughter of my brother. Her name is Adelia and she will turn 3 this August. My nices and nephews call me Aunty Leeny, but since Adelia substitues all her L's with D's, she calls me Aunty Deeny! so cute! Spoke to her on the phone last weekend! Man! When I left she couldnt speak yet, and now shes asking me when I will be getting home!

Imagine what she sounds like when Adrian (my one and only darling brother) gets her to say "Lucy Lawless Loves Lollypops!" HAHAHAHAHAH!

My eldest sisters (Elaine) youngest son, Ryan....he was a wee baby when I left. A little boy now! And my other sister Jane's baby....Alicia, I've never even met her! I've been missing too much.
And my mosquito.. ...Tristan! (Thats Elaine's middle kid). Why do I call him that? Well, he used to whine alot. So I told him he sounded like a mosquito and I can never understand a word he says! He doesnt whine anymore now. He's a big boy! But still my little mosquito!

I could go on and on and on about my family. But I'll save it for some other time. I need to get back to work!

You all have a brilliant day! And go tell your family they are ace! One day they will be gone and you'll be sorry you didnt tell them you cared! I'm telling you!

Chapter 1- Begins Everyday

Hello!
It's 7th February 2006 at 1308 hrs and I am at work. It's my lunch break so I'm not skiving here ok!

Well, its my first posting and I already have writers' block. Typical. Its always difficult when you expect too much of yourself isn't it. What do you do?! It's the first posting! Start it with a bang! Crap. Not happening today folks. Its been a hectic morning and my head is slightly fried. But it's been ass kicking and I love it!

In a few months I will be returning home to my family. Can't wait. Am excited. Miss them all so much and hate being away from them so far away. But we all have to make choices in life. And I made mine with the rest of my life in view. It's funny how you have to end things to start other things. Like my dad always says, "EVERYTHING, no matter how bad or how good, will always come to an end." Now some people would call that a pessimistic point of view. While there is a fine line between being pessimistic and being realistic, I'll side my dad on this one and consider us being real bout things. With this particular view, I don't see it as being negative. I think in a large way, its comforting.

Obviously knowing that good things will come to an end is not a nice thought. But after all, its not the destination that matters. Its the journey isnt it? So where it ends doesn't matter. But how it was while it was there is what counts.

Anyway.... here I am so far away. But never lonely and never alone. How blessed and lucky I am. Family, though far away, always close to the heart. Friends, who prove themselves to be real friends even when they can't see you or spend time with you, stay the most precious gifts. Thank God for telephones and computers...and oh yes....the worlds postal service.

So here I am, at the edge of a new beginning yet again. So many words spring to mind to describe how I feel.

If any of this doesn't make sense to you, it will later on. Don't want to go on about it too much now. Let's just leave it at this,.... I am Happy. I am happy because even though I am far away from them, I have the best family I could hope for. I am happy because I have come to recognise who my true friends are and I am pleased to say, there turns out to be many. I am happy because I have friends here, where I am, that i know I would have never been complete if i never knew them. And I am happy because I have my support system, my best friend, and the love of my life, from now on, next to me, every step of the way. Until death decides this good thing must come to an end.

Until then, I am Happy, that God decided I deserve everything I have today. And I will be sure to make sure I live my life in the way He feels I deserve to never have it taken from me.

I'll end my first posting, wishing you, not riches, not luck....but happiness and health. Comfort, someone to hold hands with, and someone to share everything with.

And if today was a lousy one, begin again tomorrow.