Chapter 1- Begins Everyday

Hello!
It's 7th February 2006 at 1308 hrs and I am at work. It's my lunch break so I'm not skiving here ok!

Well, its my first posting and I already have writers' block. Typical. Its always difficult when you expect too much of yourself isn't it. What do you do?! It's the first posting! Start it with a bang! Crap. Not happening today folks. Its been a hectic morning and my head is slightly fried. But it's been ass kicking and I love it!

In a few months I will be returning home to my family. Can't wait. Am excited. Miss them all so much and hate being away from them so far away. But we all have to make choices in life. And I made mine with the rest of my life in view. It's funny how you have to end things to start other things. Like my dad always says, "EVERYTHING, no matter how bad or how good, will always come to an end." Now some people would call that a pessimistic point of view. While there is a fine line between being pessimistic and being realistic, I'll side my dad on this one and consider us being real bout things. With this particular view, I don't see it as being negative. I think in a large way, its comforting.

Obviously knowing that good things will come to an end is not a nice thought. But after all, its not the destination that matters. Its the journey isnt it? So where it ends doesn't matter. But how it was while it was there is what counts.

Anyway.... here I am so far away. But never lonely and never alone. How blessed and lucky I am. Family, though far away, always close to the heart. Friends, who prove themselves to be real friends even when they can't see you or spend time with you, stay the most precious gifts. Thank God for telephones and computers...and oh yes....the worlds postal service.

So here I am, at the edge of a new beginning yet again. So many words spring to mind to describe how I feel.

If any of this doesn't make sense to you, it will later on. Don't want to go on about it too much now. Let's just leave it at this,.... I am Happy. I am happy because even though I am far away from them, I have the best family I could hope for. I am happy because I have come to recognise who my true friends are and I am pleased to say, there turns out to be many. I am happy because I have friends here, where I am, that i know I would have never been complete if i never knew them. And I am happy because I have my support system, my best friend, and the love of my life, from now on, next to me, every step of the way. Until death decides this good thing must come to an end.

Until then, I am Happy, that God decided I deserve everything I have today. And I will be sure to make sure I live my life in the way He feels I deserve to never have it taken from me.

I'll end my first posting, wishing you, not riches, not luck....but happiness and health. Comfort, someone to hold hands with, and someone to share everything with.

And if today was a lousy one, begin again tomorrow.